Child of Divorce May 6, 2006

Child of divorce

fully grown

with children of my own.

With every fight,

With every disappointment

I battle the urge

to escape

the way my parents did.

I cling to the cross, daily

so as not to follow

the model

I’ve been given

but to keep my commitment strong.

In abandonment

     and disappointment

a numbness crept in.

I feel nothing but pain

     and small glimmers of joy

     peeking through my walls.

Few are let in

Many are pushed out

as I’ve grown to trust no one

with my soul.

This is the legacy

I’ve been given

     by

          divorce.

Forgive?! May 5, 2006

Forgive?!

Forgive what?

Oh no, Lord.

     Did you see what they did?

Did you see how they hurt me?

Oh no,

     I can’t do that.

Forgive.

Forgive the offense.

Forgive the abuse.

If you don’t,

     I can not forgive you.

But Lord,

     did you see what they did?

Do you see how I hurt??

I saw what they did.

I was there.

I was there waiting for you

     to run to Me.

Run to me,

     and I will heal you.

Run to me,

     and I will help you forgive.

My Son died for both of you.

For you–

     and for them.

You must forgive,

     or I can not forgive you.

OK, Lord.

I choose to forgive,

     and I’m running to You.

Open up your arms

     and cATCh me!